I always felt that I was born in the wrong era and was therefore never entirely understood. I defied convention and was an enemy of the average. Looking back, I would say that I was on a lifelong quest of sorts. In my younger, more destructive years I craved new experiences and an opera career. My six marriages were part of this quest through my first phases of life. After all, if we don’t advance, we retrograde, and I had no time for that!
“Persistence,” by Jessica Antola
My many husbands funded my lavish lifestyle and exquisite taste in jewelry, which I eventually sold off for exotic plant species to create my ultimate love, Lotusland. It was here, in the second half of my life, that I began my search for spiritual enlightenment. I painted with plants, creating a surrealist landscape of 37 acres. Some considered my gardening style eccentric, bold, and extravagant, but more is certainly better!
I avoided the conventions of traditional garden design and planted a hundred of the same rare species in one area. Then I covered my garden in jewels, abalone shells, crystals, and lava rocks and created 20 distinct gardens to showcase my varied botanical collection. I named my garden Lotusland because it was my place of spiritual renewal. I identified with the lotus flower—a tightly closed bud growing through the murky waters to emerge as a beautiful bloom, reborn with purity and enlightenment. I was transformed and my consciousness was awakened in the Santa Barbara air.
Jessica Antola is a photographer, director, and artist based in Brooklyn.